Well here it is, a long awaited update.  Been busy...lemme see Cam turned 6 on April 21st, man time sure does fly.  We had a good time, took him to Montana's and he wore the moose horns again lol at least this year he could see from under them, last year all you could see is a part of his face it was so cute.

    Been pretty sick with my celiacs, it really is not getting any better, to much stress at work and stupid nonsense going on there.  I need to find something better, and trust me after a bit of time off, I might feel better and be able to go through a day without being in so much pain. 

   Things are going good with Kevin, been some up's and down's, but he kinda understands.  He is so not good at housework, I come home from work when he is here all day and it is a disaster, I dunno how he does it.  It takes him all day to clean the livingroom, wash the floor (not by hand either) and take out the garbage.  We did have his folks come over for a bit, we had gone over to see them when his dad was in New Westminister, my first trip on the sea bus and skytrain, it was kinda cool until we were heading home and realized we were going to miss the last Horseshoebay Ferry home, and if we had to catch the other one from Tsawwassen we would have gotten into Duke Point around 2am, and we had Cam with us and I had to work the next day.  But yeah it was a lot of fun for the most part, it was so neat pulling up in the sea bus and seeing the city skiyline of Vancouver, I had not seen it is so long I was in awe.  I want to go back and take Cam to science world.  We went past GM place on the Sky Train and Cam was so excited - he loves the Canucks.

   Anyhow with all that going on and the BS at work, I just needed to take some time off.  I will be happy to take some time off lol...I need to get into shape, oh man.  I tore up my ankle a bit ago, was in an air cast for the longest time, that sucked - still should be wearing it but I am stuborne.  Other than that I got the flu a bit ago, that kinda sucked, oh I was sooo sooo sick sicker than I have been in soo many years.  Gosh man that sucked lol.  

   I got my 28th birthday coming up, should be fun, not to sure what I will do but oh well.  Kevin`s parents left me a B-day card with a cheque in it hehe - they also gave Cam $40 for his B-day, gosh it is odd haha, but yeah in no time Kev and I will be common law, odd thought lol.  I love him to bits and all, I love how good it feels to cuddle with him, and just sit and hang out with him, he is a good guy I am pretty darn lucky and I know it. 

    I also got word a friend of mine is heading off to Afgahnistan again for about 8 months, Kandahar to be exact and that can`t be good.  I wish him and all those with him a safe return in 8 months.  I know it is hard for him being over there. 

    Anyhow I guess that is about it from me...for now...maybe now that I got more time (hahaha as if) I will be around more.   Cheers!

      Ok I know I have been slacking off out here...why, cuz I have been busy.  Some family stuff came up, namely my mom getting all pissy at me for shit.  Two weeks before she would talk to me again, meh shit happens.  Kev and I do a lot more on our own now without help.  He gets Cam up and fed and dressed in the mornings and off to school, he helps clean up and do things around the house.  He got my an iPod shuffle (a new one it is orange and has Karenz Tunes engraved on it) and he got me a Nintendo DS Lite - I am paying him for them - just some of it as I feel guilty for him doing such nice things.  Still getting up and 4am, still dragging my ass to and from work each day.  Things with Kevin and good, starting to love that man more and more (if that is possible), he is really sweet and helps me out a lot.  No matter how bad a day it is he is there to help make things better than they would have been without him.  Cam said he wants Kevin to stay forever, and Kevin was like ok it's a deal.  I was like hmm don't make a kid promises if you cant keep them, but to be honest I don't see him going anywhere.  He makes life what I had always wanted...good.

   Cam may have Tourettes Syndrome, been noticing the ticks and twitches A LOT more now and the odd facial movements and sounds.  It's not for sure but I go Thursday to see a specialist so who knows.  Things are not half bad, got plans for my 2 weeks off, not sure if Kevin will have the time off (he has a very good chance of getting a job with Shaw Cable doing tech support starting next week) but if he doesn't have the time off right then, then I will wait until he gets vacation time and we can do something then.  I just know I am going to need a break by July, a whole year and not a single day off that didnt come out of a family day or a sick day. 

   We are thinking of maybe moving down to Victoria this summer, so I can find a better job and we can get Cam into a decent school, just break  free a bit from my family here and gain that independence that I need.  I love Victoria it is such a beautiful city.  So much to see and do.  I plan on taking Kevin down there soon for a weekend get away - just the two of us, probably stay in a place near the water and  stuff, I would love to spend the day browsing in and out of all the little shops and  just enjoy the (hopefully) nice weather. 

    I think that this is a good representation of how I feel at the end of my work day.  lol...kinda like ahhhh wtf.  I like my shift - to a degree.  I hate my supervisor she is sooo not nice to me, she is nice to most of the people on the team but when I need something done I get nothing but flack and hassle.  Took me 3 weeks to get her to talk to the lady who does benefits.  I dunno time to get a new one.  When it comes to things I need at work I  want to get it done, I don't want to wait two or three weeks when I know it takes like 10 minutes to do.  She tells me I need to use streamline more, which is our knowledge base type thing, I am like look I use it on every single e-mail I send out.  I am tired of being railroaded in things.  I am only human here I can only take so much and at 5am - that aint a lot.   Ahh well tomorrow is another day...Kevin has his 2nd interview with Shaw, if all goes well then he will prob start next week...that will be interesting but all that is cool...he needs this job.  I need him to have a job - supporting the 3 of us for the last 2 months mostly on my own has not been a fun task, he does help out in a lot of other ways which helps me out a lot so I don't compain and I am ok with it...but we need things lol he wants a car and I need a new washer and dryer and a couch.  Things are pretty good no real issues was rough at first, but we are getting used to each others temperment and things are generally not that bad.  Hehe every morning when I get up to go to work he says good morning and hugs me and gives me a kiss and says I love you have a good day at work.  Such a sweetie, then he rolls over and goes back to sleep lol.  

    Well I think that is about it for now...more later bed time...